and this song just rocks my world right now haha♥

i forgot how much i like Rilo Kiley.
i also started listening to Lush, early 90s shoegaze
and The Primitives, mid 80s
girl band.. and i'm digging it.
the videos are a scream..hahah

it's a good feeling discovering and rediscovering old music

just like honey

i will continue to bite my bloody tongue for now


& i don't want to date again till im 30.
truth is.. i HATE it.


meh.

a punch to the stomach.

i'm trying so hard to keep my cool.. i feel like throwing up.

optimistic

so..i've been thinking ALOT about the future lately... and my life's gonna be awesome!!! i really don't mind sitting my ass down and drawing allday. :)

all the while getting paid for it.

hopefully everything goes according to plan.



i also must get a job sooon! Radiohead is coming out
with a new album by the end of the year
and there's no doubt that they
will be touring, i refuse to miss out this time !
and i want damn good seats.

i've developed this "fuck it, you only live once" attitude.
idk if thats a good or bad thing.




idk who i am anymore.

i feel like i'm dying on the inside,
i knew i said i wouldn't and i am probably
being a drama queen
but sometimes you just can't help being human.
at least not in this case.

..i finally got around to painting the shirt. it looks like swap meet quality..and that's not a good thing. i had so much trouble with something so simple.. its what happens i guess.



ugh. here we go again.


i might just ditch painting class tomorrow.. my charles bukowski looks like benecio del toro! hahah. whats wrong with me..

so yesterday was a disaster.. apart from really getting lost.. the 2 hr
long line in the sun to get in was the cherry on top.
but fuck it!! you only live once!
luckily we brought jimmy along, he wasn't complaining, he
kept me from going insane, and made us laugh :) i love him for that.
We had a great time in the end, sweat, dirt, hunger, thirst, blisters and all.
just wish i would've been under the influence of something
really fucking good, and not taken it out on cigarettes.
that's last time i ever go to a music festival sober.
i was a chimney.


i can't stop listening to this song,

MEANS NOTHING. zip. NADA.





:]

indifference is something
extremely hard to
accomplish,


maaaaad props to the people that could.